50 Days - It's on the list

Negating the American calendar quoted above, TODAY is Saturday January 21st, 50 days until Nicole and I get married.
Today I feel calm.
In 50 days we will get to say  I do and make a commitment to one another for a lifetime.  It's the beginning of something incredible, a life we build together. Where we'll end up or what will happen, we don't know, but that's exciting, we take a of leap of faith together and take on life. 
For the remaining 50 days, I'll refer to this blog as the Groom Eye View. Trust me if I'm on the couch too much in these final weeks, that's not going to help get the job done. 
Preparation has been on since Xmas Eve 2010 when we got engaged at Nobu in Melbourne. We'll have it at a winery, no church, close friends and family, have it on a long weekend so we can hit up the Sunday session the day after, do what we want on the day and enjoy.
The word 'should' becomes a prominent term when planning a wedding. You fast learn, everyone has a view on what should happen. You should invite this person, you should do it this way. For this groom to be it's been a cleansing experience, as I'm normally the one living in the world of "should". Because things have been a done a certain way before, that's the way I should do them too, yeah?
No.
This is where Nic has guided me with the reminder we're creating something for us. We stamped out the 'should' very early in the process. Without trying to sound selfish here, you almost have to be selfish in planning your wedding. It's that part of letting go of the should, and creating the we.
If there's too much should, one forgets about the us.
More than a bucket list of things to do goes into a wedding day that's for sure. Thankfully as the 50 day countdown begins, we can confidently say we're on track. Tiny little things that make the day big is all that remains, you know little things like flower combinations, vows, that kind of gear. Little. But we have the location, the honeymoon, the guests, transport, music, food, wine, we have us.  We've ticked this off, ticked that off, we've planned it, we've paid it, we've booked it.... 
One day of celebration for a lifelong journey, so much goes into it. I wonder what we'll remember of the day ourselves? Only time will tell.
I suggested before, we don't know where life will take us after our wedding day, but I do know one thing. We'll have a blank page and probably feel a little lost with nothing left on our list to tick off.
Maybe we should create a new one on our honeymoon?
....We'll work that one out.